oh well.. i haven been bloggin.. and here i am again.. 1st time in my life.. im feeling so stressed up.. so stressed up dat i had no appetite to eat.. so stressed up dat i quarrelled wif my bro.. so stressed up dat i broke down in front of him.. =S da pressure im giving myself is way over load.. over the limit that i can have.. i am mentally not prepared i bet! well.. had seeked consultation from peepx.. da conclusion is dat im giving myself tonnes of pressure.. well.. tis da last sem of yr 3.. which marks an end to my poly life.. if i dont make it thru.. it'll b 3 and half yrs.. dats da pressure.. da barrier im having.. what is going on in my head?! broke down just now.. at least feel beta.. im like omg! dis is so =S how am i gonna change my mentality?! dear's gonna burst seeing me lo0king dat wae.. hes so vexed.. =S im sorry.. =( but i just cant help but to feel dat wae.. maybe becos im ALWAYS preparing for the worst.. dats not very gud! so dont learn ah! hmm.. now i guess im gonna ease myself.. make myself relax.. but right now while bloggin i can still feel the fear.. ju's got it right.. she spot on! spotted my fear.. fear dat all my friends have graduated.. and i might fail.. =S well.. peepx.. guess dis time rd im really gonna make it thru no matter wart.. i have to have FAITH! FAITH in myself dat i CAN make it!! sumtimes i realli hate myself.. =( go0d luck to everyone!! good luck jasmine.. =)





it was another day gone.. and i haven really settle down to study.. omg! dats like so horrible!! :S hmm.. well.. my pal told me bout what she did earlier on.. im like... =O shocked.. but luckily it was done fast.. =) at least tis beta.. rest well and get well so0n alright?! you knoe who u are.. >.< hmm celebrated nad's bdae 2dae.. we went to dis shop where we pay ten bucks .. we get to catch a show or play games for 3 hrs.. freeflow drinks.. l0l.. tis fun i wud sae.. hmm.. by right gotta go dor's bdae party @ pasir ris.. and by left.. i went ahead to marina wif my ss gang for dinner instead.. l0lx.. due to some unforseen reasons.. =) tis understandable.. yep.. hmm we were luckily.. just in nick of time to get to see da firewrks.. awww tis so beautiful!! i wanna go countdown for 2007!! =D hmm.. den went ahead to the river ang bao area.. heh.. so crowded and we smelled smelly tou fu.. omg! tis really smelly!! first time i smelled this kinda smell.. haha!! but heard dat tis nice when u chew it! =D hmm.. den walked all da wae to boat quay take bus back.. and here i am bloggin.. heh.. tis fun.. all day rd.. i hope nad's wishes will come true and stay happy.. not forgetting my old pal ahr dor ahr bu.. haha! from a sis.. she promoted to an ahr bu.. =S alright.. hope she'll always stay as she is.. happy as ever and life goes on smo0thly for da 2 of dem.. and dat goes for all peepx ard me.. be it close to me or not close to me.. cherish all ppl ard u.. dats da most impt factor! heh.. alright. .shant sae much.. gotta go study and fold joss papers for 2ml.. yeye's death anniversary is nearing.. on mon.. but we gotta pray 2ml.. cos 2ml is SUNDAY! =S alright.. luv u guys tonnes.. and of cos.. take caRE!! =D





i feel so cheated.. =( never a day i smiled it thru happily..





Well.. i've got news bout a schmate of mine had passed on.. erm.. its truly heart wrenching.. i saw in my friend's friendster bout wart she said bout her.. tears came flowing and i cant believe wart im reading is da fact.. tis too sudden.. She lost her bestie.. in 1 nite and 2 daes b4 her 21st.. right.. shant sae much.. and well.. since sec sch.. i have been trying to find da true bestie.. ermm.. i failed time and again.. but nevertheless.. ive found mine.. and theres like 2 of dem.. =) but recently.. it seemed like we're drifting.. i guess tis becos of me.. i dont knoe if shes feeling neglected or shes busy wif her work.. i really aint shure.. but for me.. i feel dat ive neglected her.. =S i wasnt dere when she nits help.. i wasnt dere to share her laughter.. and i wasnt dere to cry wif her.. and i wasnt dere to support her when she wanna be brave.. wart kinda friend am i.. i failed totally.. yep.. i dont knoe wart she thinks.. wart she likes now.. (errr guess i still knoe la.. =x) but i aint shure if shes unhappy wif me but dint tell me? or rather i am sensitive again.. =x i admit dat da demise of my schmate has partly got to do wif my feelings.. hmm.. well.. i dont knoe if tis true when u are in a r/s friends will get lesser.. (dats wart i always heard from other ppl) but i believe if 1 makes effort.. things will not be like da myth.. =) i am not making enuff effort.. well.. action speaks louder dan words i guess.. yep.. i shall see wart im gonna do.. tis a heart felt post.. i hope all my friends are living well and gud.. take bestest care of urselves.. =)





dis day sucks.. i cannot take set backs.. sucha loser.. =(





my blog is having cob webs!! omg.. it seemed obsolete.. ha.. aniwaez.. life aint ani beta.. be it after CNY or before.. tis always da same.. living in hmm... stressful daes.. worried feelings and all.. tis kinda well.. tis life.. heh.. it seemed like im always ranting.. arhghg.. alright! hmm.. CNY was kinda gud i guess.. wif relatives coming here and gathering and all.. but it seemed a lil too quiet as years go by.. and dis time rd.. tis da couples season.. cousins come with their partners and all.. some familiar faces some new faces.. oh! l0lx.. well.. whens my turn? i aint shure of dat.. it seemed like i am always talkin about studies.. work and all.. i stopped talking bout my pals and dearest.. l0lx.. alright.. shall sae bout dem 2dae.. tis really been a real some time since i last met those 06 ah sweets already.. hoho.. and not forgetting missy bready and dor! well.. we're getting older.. and more busy l0lx.. oh! dor's bdae is coming! hoho.. still unsure wart to get for her.. gosh! hmm.. well.. time passes and we're 21 this yr!! omg! ok! i hope.. i am able to mit all my pals up real so0n.. i miss dem all.. tonnes and loads.. i miss those laughter and fun we had.. i miss those days where sum1 THRASHED me 8 nil on soccer.. and missed some1 who swims wif me and all.. and da 1 whom we used to play daytona @ queenswae arcade.. la kopi @ swensens.. l0lx.. yep.. i cant wait for exams go be over and i'll be free like a bird! l0lx.. and will be able to mit whoever i wanna mit freely!! l0lx.. well as for him.. his friend commented dat we're still on honeymoon period.. ha! both of us dont think so but well.. tis da fact! and hmm.. im glad dat we're still 2gather.. l0lx.. ha! he is da 1.. i really hope!! =D dad's aware of his existence.. i guess mum might knoe too.. now tis da time where i have da courage to tell dem directly and bring him home.. ha! when will dat dae come? i not shure too.. when i get a job?! muahhaa.. i miss him.. =S hmm 13th this mth is my yeye's 10th death anniversary.. tis real fast.. he left us 10 years ago.. till now i still miss him tonnes.. dad's drunk yesterdae nite.. and it seemed to me dat hes talking to yeye.. i not shure if he was cos he was unconcious.. but da feeling is kinda strong i guess.. maybe when im blogging now.. my yeye's ard me? heh.. i miss you a whole lot too yeye!! and hmm.. something my dad said dat made me teared last wk.. mum was praying and by da rule.. we have to throw something to ask if the ancestors are there.. my mum always cant get it.. in the sense get the right reply.. and it struck me dat every year.. i'll be da 1 doing it.. and i got da reply.. and dad was commenting dat yeye wanna see me.. hmm.. it melts my heart.. it turned jelly.. like wart i did to missy years back.. =x alright.. i really miss my yeye.. i cant wait for qing ming jie.. so dat can go lim chu kang see him.. dats a day of da year i anticipate a lot.. =)